Monday, June 11, 2012

Some ramblings

You know those people who, instead of being excited for you, happy for you or well-wishing, seem to enjoy bursting your bubble? I will never understand that. They say say things like "well plans don't always work out" (yes someone actually said this to me when learning that I decided to go on a mission). People are already telling my sister "oh you are totally going to get married first". Well that might be true, but is it really necessary to point it out? It's like saying "no I don't believe in your dreams at all, so let me point out all the worst case scenarios that might happen to you because I'm sure they haven't occurred to you yet." Or better yet: "I'm a pessimist and I want you to be one too, even when you are happy and excited at the moment." No one ever says that, but that's what it feels like. It's like the person, who when you mention you love swimming in the ocean or something feel the need to start quoting stories about shark attacks. I've been trying to think of a witty/funny-but-gets-the-point-across comeback, but sadly I'm all out of then at the moment. Any ideas? It's usually after the fact that I think of them. The French call it "l'esprit de l'escalier", or the spirit of the staircase. In other words, it's the feeling, when you are halfway down the stairs after a conversation when you suddenly realize "oh I should have said that! It would have been perfect!" It definitely happens to me all the time.

In other news, it was my moms birthday yesterday (well it technically still is, because I'm eight hours ahead and I'm awake absurdly early because my roommate needed the phone at 6:45 am, and my host was really loud getting up at 5:30 in the morning. So now I'm awake, and suddenly wanted to blog, even though I'll probably (hopefully) go back to sleep). Annnyways. It was my moms birthday, and I'm bummed that I'm halfway across the world for it. Don't get me wrong, my research is interesting and all, but I only have 3 weeks left, and I'm getting to that point when I want to go home and enjoy summer, without writing down every little thing I observe. So, cue list of things I'm excited about for summer:


  • Seeing my family
  • Going home for the first time since Christmas
  • Reading books for fun
  • Hanging out with friends
  • Starting my papers
  • Swimming!!
  • Walking my dog
  • Getting some sun (it's still 55 here and raining half the time.)
  • Driving my car instead of taking a bus
  • Seeing how much my siblings have grown


Basically I can't wait. Luckily the days go by quickly here, so soon enough it will be over, and I'll get to Provo (anyone want to pick me up from the airport?) and then a week later I'll be going home! The first thing I'm going to eat is a burrito with Yumm sauce. They don't have any mexican food over here. (or any flavor at all, they only use salt and pepper. It's either really bland or way too spicy. Or seafood. What happened to using herbs??)

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

Happiness

Today I went to the French market that comes to Guernsey on Bank Holidays and fell in love with France all over again. I ordered in French and it was so natural, and it made me sooo happy. Plus I found rhubarb jam and chestnut butter--the two things I absolutely LOVED in France. I ate them everyday for breakfast. I kept thinking I would be able to find them here, but I guess it's a French thing. Anyway...I found them. And I'm going to ban myself from opening them until I get home haha. It was funny, walking through the market took me back to France a year ago. Even the yellow and green bags they give you your purchases in were the exact same ones they had in the market outside our apartment. The only thing that would have made it better is if they had fresh bread--I really miss that too. Oh it was wonderful. And it made me miss France so much it hurt. I'm not exaggerating--that's actually how it felt, a little painful. I don't know what it is about France but I absolutely love it. England just isn't the same for me. Maybe because of the happy memories I have there, but also I think it's just France itself. The language, the culture...I just love it. So I decided I really want to take a day trip to St Malo. The ferry ride is only an hour and I am soooo close to France. It probably won't be until the second to last week of June. But I'll be happy even if I just go into a boulangerie or walk around. I don't even have to do anything touristy, it will still be worth it. But I might go to Jersey instead...we'll see.

The other reason I'm really happy today..... (drum roll please)


I've decided to go on a mission!!!


It's true. I've been stressing out over the decision for a while now, and have been praying about it. I realized that I felt good about it, so I thought, ok I really think I'm supposed to go. I'm going to do it. And then I woke up the next morning super cheerful and happy and I felt SO much better. I have been so worried about what to do with my life next year, and now that I know what to do I'm not worried and stressed anymore. It's the best feeling ever. And I am so excited to serve the people of wherever I will go. Strangely I'm not really too worried about that. I know that I'll go where I'm supposed to, and that's that. (Although I must admit, I would be thrilled to get called to France). But we'll see where I end up--I'll start my papers when I get back in July. I don't want to wait, but alas, I have to. Aaaaah I'm so excited! Honestly these last two days I've been happier than I have in a really long time. It's great. My research is going well, I've figured out what to do with my life... Life is good.


Friday, June 1, 2012

Juin

I feel like I should say something momentous since it's now June already. I can't believe it. Almost halfway through my field study. My research is actually going much better--this week, I've had 4 interviews, which is quite a lot. And I'm gathering quite a bit of good data, so I'm happy about that, hopefully I'll be able to write a good paper. There's not too much to say about it, it's not like France where I was going to really cool places everyday (I really really miss that--I had a pain au raisin for breakfast this morning, brought back some goooood memories.)

Some more British/Guernseyisms:

on Wednesday, I had to get out to the lady's house to interview her. She lives in St Pierre du Bois, which is one of the really rural parishes. The directions to her house looked like this:

  • You know the cup-and-saucer? Ok, take the first left after that. (Except I was coming the opposite way by bus, so I had to figure out which road was the one right before Fort Grey)
  • Keep going quite a ways until you get to a fork in the road, stay in the middle.
  • Keep walking all the way until you see a house on the left, we're by ourselves, a cottage with an addition, and a lean-to greenhouse. (Fine, except practically ALL the houses in the rural parishes look like that...so I was a bit worried)
I asked her if there was a street name or something, and she said, oh yes, it's Rue de Clercs. I soon figured out why she hadn't given me the name, because there are no road signs. (You can never tell with Guernsey, sometimes there are, sometimes there aren't any.) I did look her phone number up in this wonderful book Sheila has, and found out that her house is called Le Tablet, so that was a relief when I saw the sign above the door. (Houses here don't have numbers, they have names. Which I always thought was a lovely idea--reminded me of Anne of Green Gables. But it makes it a bit dodgy with directions). But hey, I found it! Exactly as she had described it. So I was quite proud of myself haha. 

Another British thing: our professor's idea of a "quick lunch" is NOT the American version. I was thinking, oh I'll make a sandwich, grab an apple and run out the door. But no, "quick lunch" meant taking an hour to prepare meat, potatoes and vegetables, setting the table and sitting down to a proper meal. hahaha, I don't think I'll ever get used to that, I eat too many of my meals on the way out the door. 

I've noticed I've started using some British words--you can probably tell from reading this. I use "bit" and "quite" and "lift" and "flat" now, I'm almost used to it. Oh and "lovely" instead of beautiful. They also seem to use "fantastic" a lot, maybe that's just a Guernsey thing. 

Oh--embarrassing moment of the week: we were at church on Sunday, and one of the visiting elders noticed me and Peter sitting there (Amy's in Germany for the week). So after the meeting he asked if I was Peter's wife. hahaha. I was like uh, no, we are both BYU students. He wasn't even flustered, he just took it in stride, oh ok, what are you studying, type thing. Oh it was funny. And really awkward. 

Well that's about all I can think of to share from the last week--I didn't even go to a museum or anything. Next week the Queen's Diamond Jubilee celebrations start, so I'm really excited about that, should be lots to do. I did finally get the jubilee thing explained to me the other day. I knew they were every 10 years(ish) to celebrate how long the monarch has been on the throne, but I didn't know it corresponded to wedding years. Apparently if you've been married for sixty years, it's your diamond wedding, fifty is golden, forty is pearl, and then there's a ruby for either thirty or 25, I can't remember. Anyway, so that's where it started. The current queen of England is having her diamond jubilee this week, since she was crowned in 1952. One of the ladies I was talking to said they think she wants to beat Queen Victoria, so she has to last 4 1/2 more years. I must say I'm very American, in that I don't really get the whole royalty thing. It's very serious for them. And every former British colony is having jubilee celebrations as well--Canada, India, Australia, New Zealand. Except us haha. Of course, we would NEVER refer to ourselves as a "former British colony", even though if you think about it, we are. That had never occurred to me before, as funny as it sounds. 

There's nothing like living in another country to make you realize things about your own. Some things I really miss, just because they are familiar, and others I think we should be more like Europe in. The same lady I was talking to on Wednesday told me she'd never been to America (you'd be surprised at how many people have here) even though she goes to France all the time, and has been to Australia and Canada and various other places. She told me that she just feels like America is too big, and dangerous. (That's another Britishism, they refer to it as America, never the States, or the United States. Oh and it's the war of American Independence, not the Revolutionary War). Her daughter was an exchange student in Pennsylvania I think, and absolutely loved it. But she said she just worried and worried about her. Traditional Guernsey is very very safe. The town isn't anymore, but in the smaller parishes you still get that small-town feeling. Strangers offer to give you rides, stop to help lost tourists and there is nothing suspicious about it. They are just friendly and want to help. As if to prove her point, her husband offered me a lift to the bus stop so I wouldn't miss it. At home I would have NEVER, first off, gone to someone's house I didn't know by myself in the middle of the country (and they wouldn't have invited me over the phone) and I would not accept a ride from a stranger I just met 5 minutes before. But it's different here, people genuinely want to help you out. They never used to lock their doors or cars and nothing got stolen. That's changed now, but I feel like I got a glimpse of how things used to be, all over the world really. It was really really nice. And it's a shame that we can't be more trusting like that anymore. If everyone was honest, things could go back to the way they were. Ah well, c'est la vie.