Happiness

Today I went to the French market that comes to Guernsey on Bank Holidays and fell in love with France all over again. I ordered in French and it was so natural, and it made me sooo happy. Plus I found rhubarb jam and chestnut butter--the two things I absolutely LOVED in France. I ate them everyday for breakfast. I kept thinking I would be able to find them here, but I guess it's a French thing. Anyway...I found them. And I'm going to ban myself from opening them until I get home haha. It was funny, walking through the market took me back to France a year ago. Even the yellow and green bags they give you your purchases in were the exact same ones they had in the market outside our apartment. The only thing that would have made it better is if they had fresh bread--I really miss that too. Oh it was wonderful. And it made me miss France so much it hurt. I'm not exaggerating--that's actually how it felt, a little painful. I don't know what it is about France but I absolutely love it. England just isn't the same for me. Maybe because of the happy memories I have there, but also I think it's just France itself. The language, the culture...I just love it. So I decided I really want to take a day trip to St Malo. The ferry ride is only an hour and I am soooo close to France. It probably won't be until the second to last week of June. But I'll be happy even if I just go into a boulangerie or walk around. I don't even have to do anything touristy, it will still be worth it. But I might go to Jersey instead...we'll see.

The other reason I'm really happy today..... (drum roll please)


I've decided to go on a mission!!!


It's true. I've been stressing out over the decision for a while now, and have been praying about it. I realized that I felt good about it, so I thought, ok I really think I'm supposed to go. I'm going to do it. And then I woke up the next morning super cheerful and happy and I felt SO much better. I have been so worried about what to do with my life next year, and now that I know what to do I'm not worried and stressed anymore. It's the best feeling ever. And I am so excited to serve the people of wherever I will go. Strangely I'm not really too worried about that. I know that I'll go where I'm supposed to, and that's that. (Although I must admit, I would be thrilled to get called to France). But we'll see where I end up--I'll start my papers when I get back in July. I don't want to wait, but alas, I have to. Aaaaah I'm so excited! Honestly these last two days I've been happier than I have in a really long time. It's great. My research is going well, I've figured out what to do with my life... Life is good.