Week 2 in Brno

7 oct 2013 Cau, Well I was doing fine until I sat down to email....I think the stress of this last week has caught up to me, and I've felt like I have to be the strong one for both of my companions. Both of them have kind of had a hard transition, so I've been trying to be the one that has faith and is optimistic and pushing us on, and comforting them. But I got sick AGAIN, and my cough won't go away, so I've been kind of miserable all week. Finally got to organize half the apartment yesterday though, which helped, it was such a mess I couldn't figure out what materials we even had. So that will help a little. I just really miss you right now. And I know that my friends are probably busy but no one but you guys have written me for a couple transfers now, which is lame. I know I shouldn't care, or take it personally, but it does hurt a little bit. I think I'm just extra sensitive because I don't really know any missionaries in Moravia--all of my friends are on the other side of the country. And the elders in my district here like to make feminist jokes and such, which is just annoying. I'm sorry this is such a downer, I think it just all caught up to me, and I feel like if I lose it in front of them then my companions will too-gah. I'm just feeling kind of alone right now. But I know that it's not about me, yadda yadda.... And I am working hard of course. I'll be fine, we're so busy there really isn't that much time to think about myself anyways. Well on the bright side the members here are great, and I really do like Brno. We have a really good YSA group, and people actually stop when you talk to them on the street. All of the people they taught last transfer have kind of disappeared, so we are basically starting from scratch, but we have a meeting with an old potential from C Bud (that I referred to myself haha) tonight and she sounded super cool on the phone, so that's exciting. We are teaching a family history introduction night on Wednesday so we are going to contact on that for the next few days to try and find some new people to teach, and then after that we are going to focus on inviting people to Conference, since we watch it a week late. I can't wait for it, I think I really need that spiritual boost. Can't believe it's been 6 months since the last one though! That was my second week in the country. Kind of crazy. The days just seem so incredibly long, but then I look back and I'm almost halfway done with my mission, and I don't know what happened! Well I don't really know what else to say about this week, it's all just kind of a blur. I just feel like I need to just be so much better, more effective, more bold, just everything. I know I shouldn't be such a perfectionist, but I could just be so much better. Gah. It probably doesn't help that I haven't had a real P-day for 3 weeks. I am excited about this transfer, it's just going to be a lot of work. But I'm really glad that I feel like I left C Bud a lot better than it was when I got there, so I'm determined to do the same thing here. I like contacting better in a trio, teaching is kind of hard to get used to, but we'll get there in the end. We are going up to Prague again on Friday for my last visa appointment, which will be good to get done. And I'm going to try and find some good tennis shoes today, I hate shopping as a missionary it's so stressful. Gah. Oh well. It'll be fine. love you!!!! Sestra Cooper